Dear diary,
I thought that after the concert, fun in the sun, life would be better I don’t know why but I just thought so, but I guess I was wrong.
Yesterday I got some money from jeffory, prim’s boyfriend well I spent some and left some for the other day. So when I woke up this morning no breakfast was cooking but I didn’t mind because I had some money pulse I had to buy a tooth bush for I haven’t had a toothbrush in months. I had a bath and put on my cloths and look in my draw to see if I say my money I put in it but I didn’t, so I ask who took up m money and mom said she did so I ask why she said she had to cook dinner so I started to cry because I saved that so I could buy some thing for me and she didn’t even maid breakfast I was really angry and hungry and my breath smelt really bad so I knew from that moment the day is going to go bad I had to eat mackerel witch I do not like and then I had to wash the dishes I was still angry and crying so I stated to read a magazine and then I eat dinner after that and then mom was cleaning the she discover the cat had dodo on the floors she was cleaning it up and she wanted bleach so she sent me to buy bleach but nowhere had any and I was angry and frustrated and mom just sent me to was the dishes but I washed it this morning and I’m really angry. When I was young I had thought of suicidal but never like this. i feel like killing myself but I kept thinking what others would say or think about me but then again I would be dead, so who cares I really feel sad and if I don’t die I want to leave this place because this place is causing my sorrow and pain, anger and sadness, frustration and suicidal!!
So earlier I was thinking about going to the hospital or homes, so I would try to do something to hurt myself or harm so I can end up at the hospital or my lead to death I if the rest of the week end up like this I am going to put serious consideration into this .
Felling: suicidal, frustrated and angry
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